There are burrows in my mind of the kind not sweet,
And I cannot cheat them and I cannot delete them . . .
By the grace of God I can, perhaps, change them!
Last night was one of the roughest I have experienced thus far with this nasty condition called akathisia. I even went to the Emergency Room – or, rather, I was driven to the Emergency Room – in order to hopefully find some relief. After more than four hours I received two shots that did precious little to alleviate my suffering.
Today has (thus far) turned out better than I expected, and for that I am extremely grateful even as I pray for the night, holding onto hope by faith in God, who is so good. This afternoon I did see my doctor, and he made some changes to the medication I am taking. Hopefully this will prove beneficial. We shall see.
It is odd, though, how one’s mind plays such a powerful role in how one feels. I am discovering this for myself and it is painful. When your mind, particularly your thinking, does not cooperate with good health your whole being, including the physical, suffers. It is really and truly a case of mind over matter, with the “matter” being your body.
Now to end on a good note: I want to thank each and every one of you for your very kind thoughts, understanding and encouragement … and especially your prayers on my behalf. Thank you for saturating me with love and good will. Thank you for lifting me up to God in supplication. This means more to me than I am able to express in words! Special blessings upon each and every one of you!
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Prayer support is powerful. When I was in cancer treatment, I literally felt that I was helplessly floating on a bed of prayer, all I did was to let go of my worry and trust that God, also honoring the prayers, will carry me through!
Amen! Right now that is where I am, too, which makes the prayers of friends and family so much dearer to my heart.
What you’re doing is the right thing, keep giving update of your situation, so that they (we) could pray specifically for you – not that God needs to hear the detail. It’s more for us to know that God answers our prayers!
Thank you and I will… Somehow giving these updates is therapeutic, and I am so blessed to have dear, concerned friends read the updates and (especially) pray!
When I was in treatment, by the third day in the hospital, I couldn’t even talk or move. After five days of inpatient treatment, I was miserable. But the second day after I got home, I sent out an detail update, friends were surprised that I had energy to do it. I liked to do it when my memory of what I went through during that cycle of treatment was still fresh. Now I used what I had written to remind myself of God’s grace.
Oh! I so look forward to being able to look back on all of this and praise God for His mercy… In fact, I’ll praise the Lord now for His love, mercy, and grace! God is good … God is great. And I know that He is using this for my good and the good of others. Please keep praying, and thank you!
Yes, I pray for you always. I thought how frightening you must had been when you needed to go to ER. I hope you body calms up by now!
I’m so proud of you! Bravo my friend. This isn’t going to be easy, but you are not alone. Reach out and that’s exactly what you are doing. I love you!
Thank you so very much, my dear friend… I so deeply appreciate your loving understanding and support! I am so very thankful to be surrounded by such warmth, so much love, prayers and encouragement!
You are so welcome my friend. You should be. You deserve it. What you are facing and what you are doing is not easy. But you will receive healing and blessings. I know you will.